Paradox: The Dredgen Yor Journals 4

Hi, all! This is another facet of Rezyl Azzir/Dredgen Yor (gamer tag Basket34Ball) Paradox story, told from the perspective of James' rival Dredgen Yor in a series of journal entries. This only complements the series, so you won't get the full experience just reading this. This is a link to the Table of Contents: https://www.bungie.net/en/Forums/Post/222610151?page=0&sort=0&showBanned=0&path=0 If you're ambitious, here's the first part to get you started: https://www.bungie.net/en/Forums/Post/222438285?page=0&sort=0&showBanned=0&path=0 Hope you enjoy! __________________________________________________________________________________________ [b][u]Entry 41[/u][/b] Not now, Shrimp. I'm not in the mood. I don't care! P*** off, or I'll-- I can point my gun anywhere I want, d*** it! Go away! You're not gonna leave, are you? It's still mandatory, isn't it? Nnnnggghh...fine, whatever. Sorry I pointed this at you. I - I shouldn't have done that. You know I'd never shoot you, right? Please, say something that lets me know I'm not too far gone. I don't understand! I killed that stupid wizard. The whispers are gone. But this...this [i]gun[/i]...it still shoots thorns. Yeah, you have anything better I should call them? The whole thing looks like a thorny stem...maybe that's what I'll call it now. No, not "Stem," "Thorn." Are you trying to be funny? It ain't working. It...I almost see myself in it, now. You know, I used to be a weapon of Light, killing anything that endangered the City. Now I'm covered in thorns, filled with poison, and...I'm still just killing things. How is the Light different from the Darkness if all either do is fighting? All [i]I[/i] do is fight. Do I even have a choice? If I did, would I choose [i]not[/i] to fight? Thing is...with Thorn...I'm now actually starting to enjoy my work. Killing. *A shot rings out.* Stop whining, Shrimp, it's not going to hit anyone, we're several clicks from the City. I know it was right at it, but...No, I don't know that it won't hit anyone. You have a point there. I don't think I'd care if it did. Yeah, I know. ... Ana's doing alright, I guess. I think she's finally gotten over her break-up, so she's a little happier now. Why am I telling you this? You see her every time I see her. Mmmm...What am I doing, Shrimp? I can't get her off my mind, I want to let her know how I feel, but...look at me. What I'm becoming. She already knows it's nothing good. I tell you, I'm getting corrupted by Darkness, I can feel it. What? She's...cutting it back? How? Making me happy? How does [i]that[/i] help? You don't know. Gee, that's helpful. You really think so? Well, this is a little sudden, you know? One moment I'm stewing in self-loathing, the next I'm taking dating advice from a Ghost...[i]who[/i], I might add, will probably [i]never [/i]go out with somebody. Oh my God. You did not just say "every rose has its thorns." That's not encouraging, it's a bad joke and you know it. Don't quit your day job.