I am, but there are worse than me. I won't make it long. Let's time travel back into September-Early December. I was a real positive person, I tried to make people happy and still battle how I felt at the same time, it worked for awhile. But the energy from the previous summer caught hold, you see I'm a spiritual person, so I carry crystals for protection from energies, well in the midsts of summer I had hooked up with this really nice girl and everything was fun and then it crumbled away. We got into a load of arguments and them split in August and were off on till this past week. Slowly I've fell into this pit of misery and longing for her. Now let's go back forward. She tells me that we should get back together and I say okay, she never messages me back until the other day. She starts to brag that she has a boyfriend and that life is so good. Life's good for me as well, but lately it's not. Then yesterday night while playing Xbox with my younger brother she messages me and asks and I quote [quote]Do you have that big friend of yours out, I like it and I'm in the mood.[/quote]...and it pissed me off. I let all the energy that I had built up over months out, and it felt good. But it came back..I don't know where to go from here. The feelings have got me in a whirlpool of lust and sadness. God damn does it suck.