Today, just after 12pm EST, my father took his own life in the room just next to mine. All while I was sleeping through the day from a long night of reading. I've never experienced something so horrific, or felt something so cold as his face as I cut and lay him down on the ground before the paramedics could arrive. I know this really isn't the place to express this, but I'm completely out of it. I was really looking forward to tomorrow, and the 30th anniversary event, but this has totally overshadowed that.
Please, if you see someone feeling down, at all, reach out. Make them know you're there for them. And if you're feeling depressed, or alone, don't hesitate to speak your mind and let your friends and family know. We care. Anyway, that's all I got guys.
To those that offered condolences, thank you. I needed that.
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So sorry for your loss Sir Exo, how terrible for you & additionally that you had to be the one to find him like this. Your dad must have been so very ill to do this to himself & also to not foresee the horror for you to find him. Having also had a suicide in my close family in the past I know only so well how awful it is for all. We just have to hope that your dad is now in a better place & that he finds peace. It is now left to those left behind to deal with the fall out of it all unfortunately & it will take 1 step at time to go forward in to the future & find some peace yourself some day. Strength to you & try not to go it alone, engage with friends & family & it is always perfectly ok to seek counseling.