[quote]Seriously? I seriously cant think of a weaker excuse.[/quote] Not a weak excuse. She was at an impasse with the Vanguard. Their "rules" were getting in the way of what she felt was the best way forward in terms of how to defeat the Darkness....and the story is proving her right. If Ana hadn't done what she did, what happened on Mars could have blossomed into a disaster. Saladin and Zavala suffer from the same character "flaw". Both men are honorable, dedicated men...are true paladins. But both of them are very rigid and very conventional in their thinking. Zavala is at least aware of this...and is why he keeps Cayde where he is in The Tower. Cayde's impulsive and creative "brilliance" act as a counterweight to Zavala's conventionalism and predictability. As long as Ana stayed in the Vanguard fold, Zavala would have never allowed her to aggressively pursue her past and the key to restoring Rasputin and returning him to the fold. The "dressing down" that Zavala gave her when he found her at Brayscape made that undeniably clear. So there comes a point where--when dealing with someone that rigid---that you either knuckle under and give in to their "my way or else" approach. Or you break away, and take a "better to beg for forgiveness, than to ask for permission" approach. Which is what Ana did.