lol good on you for giving it a go! I started playing PS1 as a form of therapy to get my hand eye co-ordination back. Then moved onto PS2. I mostly played driving, sports and fighting games as I didn't have the dexterity to manage FPS at that time. It wasn't until my nephew got an Xbox 360 that I attempted to use the Xbox style controller. It immediately felt more comfortable for me due to the stick layout. The way I play now is the exact way I played my first game with my nephew, it just felt "right". I wouldn't say I ever felt like giving up. Sure I have my down days but I'm ridiculously stubborn as my wife will attest! Seeing me in the street, its obvious I have a disability. So, my goal online was to "blend in" and make my play such that no one could possibly know or believe it if I told them ;)