I'm glad you're confident about where you stand on what you believe. I wish I could say the same thing about myself :(. For a time, I was pretty happy with my faith, but when I got older and started to think deeper and more critically, since 1 and a half years ago I realized some things about Christianity that I couldn't help but question since. I couldn't help but ask to myself" why is loving someone who happens to be the same gender such an evil thing? " For awhile, I never got an explanation other than "abomination" or "God says so" so I just kept thinking further about it. I honestly don't know what to do about this subject. Deep down, I want to support gay rights but my superiors say otherwise and I'm scared to think how this is going to be resolved, with my heart saying one thing and my superiors saying another. I did have one idea where I just remain neutral on the subject but I'm not sure what God would think of that. Another thing that I question is the point of Hell. I know how it came to be but to this day I wonder why would a merciful god continue to allow countless souls to suffer millennia after their short couple of years of sin. If torture is considered inhumane, why should it go on for eternity? Especially after the final battle when Evil will finally be defeated? Letting so many people suffer for eternity instead of simply wiping their souls from existence just sounds........... cruel. I truly despise being in between religion and agnosticism, but I've felt trapped like this for quite some time. Feel free to answer any questions if you could. Being human, I don't think I will find out everything until I come across God face to face when my time here is over. Thinking now, I still love and respect God since many of my loved ones have been saved and are with him now, and I'm grateful for that.