I hope it's more help then I was. But even understanding more about it, you will still probably have to wait for your guide (if you ever befriend it, and I hope you do). It might take months, or even years before your guide shows itself... (It took me about 9 months before I befriended mine, and my grandfather had already taught me about the circle of life and to respect/honor everything because we are all connected). It's not a difficult journey(if you are patient), but It can be a long one.