No problem, seriously though, do perdue whatever career makes you happy. I've seen lots of family that went to college and are miserable for the rest of their lives, and yet there are people like me, I'm a dishwasher, and outside of my simple job I do what I want and I'm pretty content. Don't get me wrong, I do still suffer from both bipolar disorder, and severe depression, so I have my bah days, but one you stop caring it all gets simple. My recommendation is try meditating for an hour each day. Simply find a comfortable position, shut out the world, focus on your breathing, and make sure to set an alarm. If that fails, and you live in a state where its legal, I recommend weed. Its a antidepressant, it smells fantastic, it has a large culture, and a little goes a long way.