He doesn't HAVE to show himself to you through anything other than what he already has given us. He gave us the Bible so that we could read and believe. He's also not at your beck and call. Saying "God show yourself to me damnit or i wont believe in you!" Is approaching faith at the wrong angle. If you were serious about wanting to see God, and willing to accept that he may not appear in some Hollywood movie sort of way, you should try this: SINCERELY pray to Him asking for Him to open your eyes to His grace and love. Simple as that.

It was kind off joke... Anyway, I have been a christian for over 3/4 of my life I know what it feels like. What you don't understand is that the feeling you have is NOT unique to christians. I get that feeling when I look up at the stars, some get it when they look into a microscope or with music. I have read the bible btw. As far as Im concerned its a book of fairy tails no offense. I became an atheist [i]after[/i] reading the bible.

Ah, i can respect your position for sure. As you probably already guessed i encourage you to come back, but if you've already decided, then that's that. Best regards to you then