Me and my buddies sucked each other off when we were 8. Me and my cousin sucked each other off when we were even younger than that. I've been wanting to cut out all my internal organs since then, I'm 20 now. Hear kids at school make fun of cocksuckers everyday, how's that for anxiety? I hate me so much, I'm so -blam!-ing disgusting. Also I'm a basterd, my father has never made an effort to come see me. He'd rather be snorting H on the streets, or chilling in prison. On top of that shit, I'm a true skitzophrantic- to the point that I've had encounters with aliens, and demons, I've been face to face with green men that have left me in crippling, and paralyzing fear. Haha too much dmt being secreted naturally :) I've heard evil laughter randomly in the daytime, as if demons were mocking me. I'm fit and I'm very good looking, but I don't mesh well with any group of people. When I speak with people around my age in public, I don't feel equal to them as a human. I can't even die peacefully, because I was sent away to a Christian group home in 6th grade, and they told me that if I take my own life I'd burn in hell for all eternity. That if I did that The Lord would never forgive me, and I don't even believe the religion. I lost my virginity at 18 to a female.