Ok: Right now im sad because of having a fear about being sad all the time. I thought of bad memories but they just meh. Compare to the fear, the fear of always being sad gets me down everytime. Then i start overthinking and makes me want to cry. Don't know why but is only on saturday and sundays. I had suicidal thoughts but I'll never sucumb to it, life is too beautiful to give up. The thing that gets me is the fear and I dont know what to do with it... Thank you for reading. (This started out on January 2, 2015. Remembered a silly mistake i did but now turned into this shit)