No hurt venting I guess... I don't know if I'm depressed or just apathetic. I failed out of a prestigious university, have family with life threatening illnesses, and had a pretty tough falling out with a girl. The university I went to was out of state from my home town and I came back to attend a community college (it's been almost a year and I'm applied to transfer back in the summer) but all my friends that live here moved to go to some university or are always way too busy. Even my best friend usually has to cancel with someone else in order to make time for me. The girl was at the university so I haven't really seen or talk to her since I left which isn't the problem... Since I'm introverted it's very difficult to just "meet new people" and it's been a few years since I've had a serious girlfriend and I'm kinda longing for it.. In the time I've had i mostly played a lot of ps4 but recently it's just not holding for me and I've started learning some coding and practicing some art to pass the time. I just feel like I'm going nowhere and I don't know if I'm upset by that fact or if I don't even care. It's kind of odd since I was clinically diagnosed as depressed when I was younger but it doesn't feel the same. Ugh.. I have a headache..