We bury ourselves into a video game? We are all depressed

I feel depressed :(

Well, as of the 31st my wife and I will be homeless. So there's that. :/ I live in a very small town that has little to no jobs so I've been very in between jobs for awhile now. The family I've been living with has told us we are no longer welcome. I've had countless interviews but there's not much I can do if they don't give me a follow up call.

Does social akwardness count? It kind of is a problem and does add up to the many issues that I've succumbed to. Tips would be useful to make me less akward around people I don't know so well.

Can't tell Too many voices telling me otherwise or for...

Older I get the harder it seems to find a girl who smoke weed too and I dont even try for non stoner girls cause ive learned more then enough times that it is a waste of both of are time....I'm not depressed but the situation is depressing...just want to find the one you know

I often think of elaborate ways to kill my ex. She lives within a 2 minute walk range.

Wik wi not treï a vacatiøn tø Swëdën zïs yër?

:^) you're a good guy for doing this I'm not really depressed, and others need help more than I do.

No hurt venting I guess... I don't know if I'm depressed or just apathetic. I failed out of a prestigious university, have family with life threatening illnesses, and had a pretty tough falling out with a girl. The university I went to was out of state from my home town and I came back to attend a community college (it's been almost a year and I'm applied to transfer back in the summer) but all my friends that live here moved to go to some university or are always way too busy. Even my best friend usually has to cancel with someone else in order to make time for me. The girl was at the university so I haven't really seen or talk to her since I left which isn't the problem... Since I'm introverted it's very difficult to just "meet new people" and it's been a few years since I've had a serious girlfriend and I'm kinda longing for it.. In the time I've had i mostly played a lot of ps4 but recently it's just not holding for me and I've started learning some coding and practicing some art to pass the time. I just feel like I'm going nowhere and I don't know if I'm upset by that fact or if I don't even care. It's kind of odd since I was clinically diagnosed as depressed when I was younger but it doesn't feel the same. Ugh.. I have a headache..

[b]SHOOT ME IN THE FACE! IN THE FAAAAAAAACE! DO IT! SHOOT ME IN THE FACE! FACE FACEFACEFACEFACE! NOW! BULLETS IN THE FACE! WANT EM! NEED EM! GIMMEGIMMEGIMME! AT THE SOUND OF THE BELL IT WILL BE FACESHOOTING O'CLOCK! BONGGGGG! KNOCK KNOCK WHO'S THERE SHOOT ME IN THE FACE! END OF JOKE! I'M GONNA SING A SONG! SHOOT ME AT THE END OF IT! DA DA DA DA DA DA DA! BONG!! ...I NOTICE YOU HAVEN'T SHOT ME IN THE FACE! CURIOUS AS TO WHY! Maybe you're weighing the moral pros and cons but let me assure you that OH MY GOD SHOOT ME IN THE GODDAMNED FACE!! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!?! IN THE FACE! NOT SO COMPLEX! NEED IT! WANT IT NEED IT HAVE TO HAVE IT! FACESHOT! BOOM! BRAINS EVERYWHERE! Not the KNEE, not the ARM, not the SPINE - FACE! IT HAS TO HAPPEN! HNNNNG! FACEY FACEY FACE FACE! TIRED OF WAITING! NO MORE WAITING! NEED A FACE SHOT! BOOM! SQUISH! YAY![/b]

I feel ashamed for putting myself on this list but I've had problems for a long time now. If you can call ten years a long time. I'm that fifteen year old kid that's been told on this site that I have amazing grammar. But that's not the point. I don't know what to do with my life. I feel like a failure all the time. I'm starting to get bad grades in school, I have a terrible self esteem issues. I live in a house that's half built (not half a house, but one with almost no siding on it, no shingles, the roof leaks in multiple spots, most of the ceiling on our second floor has no insulation, the walls are starting to crack). I thought we solved my parent's divorce issue but they'll probably actually get divorced soon. All they do is argue and scream and fight. My dad constantly screams at me telling me how stupid I am and that I'm worthless. Or at least, he makes me feel worthless. He screamed at me this morning because I took a ten minute shower. He was home for maybe five. I just hate life. I don't know how to make things better. I've thought about running away but figured he might do something to one of my sisters or maybe my brother if I did. I've had thoughts of killing him. But I haven't done that and I won't. I'm a better person than that. I get aggravated around my dad. There's no way to stay away from him. Everyone's scared of him. Everyone I know. That's just one problem though. *sighs* I've said so many things I've never said before. Of all places I posted this on the internet. This'd be about the time where everyone I know would start telling me to quit being so emo. I don't know what to do. Sorry about the length. Once the writing gets going it just starts flowing.

I'm beyond repair. Save yourself.

Sad because my role model (inthelittlewood/martyn of the yogscast) is going through depression, and also I get bullied by groups of jocks at school for not liking sports or guys/girls ( don't like either gender) and being pale.

My best friend abandoned me after being friends for over 2 years straight :(