I give you so much attention lol. I'm glad you like it. I actually have admitted this to a couple very close friends, but I am constantly lonely. I've said this on these forums many times but it's not something I'd readily tell someone in person. It weighs heavily on my heart. I am also very insecure about my body and I doubt I'll ever really be satisfied with where I am until many years in the future. I mean I'm a very confident dude but I still have my insecurities. I absolutely hate it when someone doesn't like me. I'm not talking about someone on the internet because I can handle that, but if there's someone in real life who doesn't like me, it really bothers me. It makes me start to question myself and wonder if something's wrong with me. Like Dire Dragon has said, I just want someone to love me. I want it very very badly, but I don't feel I deserve any woman. I'm fcked up and women deserve better than me.