"I don't feel legend. I don't feel unique. I feel empty. " There is no external solution to the problem of insecurity. In enveloping one's self in the mad fantasy of magic and grandiosity, in gigantic heroism, we never have to conquer and overcome anything in the real world. We never have to grow. We never have to challenge or be challenged in any meaningful way. We can endlessly avoid confrontation, fear, anger, and therefore love, acceptance, and healthy relationships. In plugging in to the matrices of a world where all is stimulation, we never get to feel who we are, only the panic, only the fire in our breath when we think it may be taken away. Because we all know how deep the wounds are and we don't want the short term management of that pain to go away. You're not talking about the game, you're talking about your life, and I hear ya, man. I really do. "I want to feel not only like I'm making a difference, but that there's a difference that needs to be made". Yeah, and you will continually feel empty if you do not recognize that it is a trap to think that is possible by sitting on the couch like a ghost, who's only disturbance may be the sound of moving eyes and thumbs, and the end of your life measured in sighs. And look, you're not dumb, so don't think that if it seems like I'm giving you a lesson from on high. Every human being who has ever lived has made this mistake, with a few exceptions just currently. The mistake, and why the world never seems to change or seems to be getting worse, is that we think we can solve problems with violence. If dead soldiers could speak, they would say "You can't build a society on the bones and carcasses of your young boys. You can't build bridges to the future on politicians tongues. We died, not to preserve your freedom, but to make you less free. We died to enslave you. " What a horrible sentiment! But it is one that we must "Be Brave" enough to at least consider. It is the one constant in all of our history, and it is the one thing that we cannot see. You cannot build peace on blood. You cannot build love on -blam!-. You cannot breed peaceful,empirical, and curious children by hitting them.