If you take the Chridtian bible and put it out in the wind and the rain, soon the paper on which the words are printed will disintegrate. Before long the entire book will disintegrate and return to the earth. My bible is the wind and the rain and the water and the earth. My bible has been around for billions of years before the Christian bible... and will be here billions of years after the last Christian bible has been printed. And yet Christians are very much pagan in practice. Yule celebrations, trees, lights on trees, burning of frankincense to cleans, candle lighting, easter eggs, even astrological practices (easter Sunday is always the first Sunday after the first full moon on the vernal equinox)... Even Santa has pagan roots. A Trinity deity (akin to the mother maiden and crone). The virgin birth and resurrection has also been done in many pagan religions prior. So while your question is what would it take for me to become a Christian, I pose to you a similar one... What would it take for a Christian to realize your more or less practicing a variant of the religion that has been around since the dawn of humanity?