I'm in bed, woke up early and have to take a morning shit. I think it's diarrhea.

Well my sister was -blam!- at age 15 in our own forest. She had a spiral dive of depression and trying to commit suicide. My parents are feeling pretty bad that this happened and trying everything they can to fix a problem but NO GO. I've have a need for revenge on the creeps head. Other then that I am having a good life

I was depressed and anxious for the past 5 years of my life, I am 18 now and I still am but now I feel much more motivated and I know exactly why. I had a long distance relationship with a girl and it ended badly. I've recently started talking to her again and I realized how much I still like her. Problem is, we live thousands of miles apart. She wants to keep it limited to a friendship because of the distance, she says she thinks I'm cute and that she still likes me too. I want it to be more but at the same time I don't see it happening within any reasonable time frame. I know long distance is hard and doesn't work out a lot but I'm to the point that I just don't give a shit anymore. I feel happy just talking to her and I didn't know something so damn simple could make me feel so happy. I can't stop thinking about her, she's beautiful and so upbeat. I want to go to university and study physics, biomedical engineering or robotics engineering. I want money so I can go see her. I know I need to focus on my personal, long term goals (which is education in a field I'd enjoy) but I just feel like it'll be impossible to put something like this off. I'd need significant cash to pursue a relationship in person with her and I don't have it. If I had even 10 grand I could probably multiply the money by a factor of five through investments, I just don't have the capital to do it and even then, it could not work out and I'd have no degree or I'd be stuck going to school away from my family. Well, it's not like the flood needed another post about girls, but I don't really have anyone to tell this. For now, I'm just going to enjoy it for what it is. INB4 LOLlongdistancerelationships I felt the same before I met this girl. I really, REALLY like her and I am happy with it now, I just feel that when I want it to progress, there's a roadblock in the way.

I don't know how to keep a conversation going with a girl ._.

Well, I made a whole thread about mine and don't feel like typing them all out again

I honestly don't know why I become so disinterested in conversations so quickly, but I always want to be more social.

I have two exes that want to hang out the same day at the same time. Threesome perhaps?

I am pledging a Fraternity right now and ain't nobody got time for that. Trying to keep up with your classes and pledge stuff is impossible. Also pledging alone is stressful from getting screamed at.

I'm addicted to drugs&alcohol

I have noticed lately that a lot of people are looking at me at uni. Namely people of the female variety. I don't like this because obviously they're judging me and that makes me avoid everyone. I'm also 50KG overweight and have severe arthritis in my wrists. I don't have any friends and listen to the Backstreet boys and Florence and the machine regularly. I started university last year but put off second semester because I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue. Started again this year. I have red hair and am a 25 year old virgin. I dislike the people around me and fall in love with strangers on the bus. I don't wash my hair. I masturbate numerous times a day; often skipping class to do so. I don't believe in showers and often dream about eating other people. I think that unwashed smelly hair is sexy and my underpants are rather crusty from my masturbation where I don't clean up. My bed smells like mold and my curtains block out all the light entering my room. I crush on every girl that posts on this website and furiously masturbate to pictures of Chad Krouger. I don't like Apple headphones and much rather prefer to buy my own pair seperately. Today I missed two bused because I sat down and didn't want to get up because two girls were sitting beside me and might judge me if I moved. I carry a mirror around with me all day because I hate the way my obese fat face looks but I can't do anything except curve my greasy hair over in a particular way. I wear aviators to uni but everyone calls me names and beats on me. I don't like that I have no money and rely on welfare payments because my only job I got fired from because I didn't show up because I am too fat and too self conscious about it