Give it a try I believe it will be different. I get the sense you had a bad experience in PVP and this dissuades you from wanting to play. I feel the same way with the cheating and the "sweaties" that have a tendency to ruin the pvp but I have stuck with it and actually been able to enjoy the pvp. Some games it will feel like a blood bath and others you might actually start to like it. We need more players in Gambit/pvp so please at least consider trying it.