"I was going to fight Irina... Alpha came to stop me... He told me he had been suicidal, that the only person who had come to help was Irina. I wasn't there for him. I could have let him kill himself... He was upset and I wasn't going to fight him. So he ran me through with his sword and severed my spinal column. All I did was hug him back. Don't attack him. Don't hurt him. I deserve this."