"You've got people like that now, and thankfully none of us have died yet." [i]He said. Whether she knew it or even believed it, Clarkson and Wilson cared about her too. They knew she made Jackson happy, and they knew she was a wickedly valuable combat asset.[/i] "It's just better I stay alone and away from it all. This time of year, it's the worst. Normally I can ignore that memory, I can block it out, but Christmas lets it out of the cage."