However, whenever JT grabbed the hilt, or whatever part of the blade, a massive wave of sadness overcame him; and it felt as if it digging up negative memories, no matter how far down they were buried. The aura around Despair grew darker, signifying the strengthening of the sword. It had fed off of the negativity, like some twisted sort of vampire. All the while, the blade still attempted to push through JT's arm. JJ was still calling it, and the strengthening of Despair only made it get farther into the arm.