That is awful, having your family hold Tranquilizer darts with them in case you snap. But I still know your pain. Emotion was what made me destroy worlds as Gore, angered into destroying them. I still blame myself for it. But you have family to help you with this, I only have Cyan, and she's away a lot. And this isn't coming from me as a fellow Dojo member, this is coming from me as a good friend that wants to help you, and had been in similar situations. That is why I'm not scared of you.