So you "mess off" 90% of the games? Why are you even playing when you are bringing your team down? I'm not even a big crucible player, but when I play I at least try. Yeah, I am not great, but I don't make excuses that I'm screwing around. Majority of your games are low k/d. That's fine. Own it. Don't try to make excuses that your average is low because you were bad in the beginning.