I think you miss the blessings among the struggles. You are probably not married or old enough to understand it. There is medication that eliminates most of the symptoms look up Focalin. That's my lifesaver. As long as I have it onboard I'm good to go. it's only when a dose runs low that I struggle. But ADHD is like cancer and my family knows that. You don't blame the person who has cancer for their symptoms. You just love them. That's the lesson here. Someday you will find yourself in my shoes I can already tell. Hope you meet someone like I did who will put up with you.