I for one am happy to play the cannon fodder for others.. After all , if it wasn't for us, then who would the better players have to shoot? The one thing that help me have some fun with Crucible is getting together with friends who really don't care if I happen to be really bad at PvP. We play to have fun and that's what matters to me. Join up with some people - whether it's a clan or people from a LFG site that want to have fun will go a long way. Best of luck.