This isn't slamming you at all, but it's only fun if you're pulling like a 2+ KD every match. Otherwise you're dying too often and it squashes any possible entertainment you could have. I find it less dreary than strikes cuz at least people change a little bit. It's really stupid, but Crucible is only 'fun' for those who have the skill to 'enjoy' it while everyone else is, as you've said, cannon fodder.