I'm not here looking for help, I'm here to share my story because I have nowhere and nobody to share it with because when I do, everyone tells me to shut up because they think I'm just rambling. I have been critically depressed for over 7 months due to being bullied at school for not being one of those dumbass rich white kids who thinks their gangsters and thinks our school and where we live is the ghetto and those kids don't respect anyone in those poverty ridden places what so ever, except me, I am very smart and respect those people unlike the students I'm bullied by because I'm different then they are because I'm shorter, I'm an artist with a vast imagination, and I don't get out much because I have no friends at all because nobody likes me or even acknowledges my existence and the times I am acknowledged I get made fun of. The depression is so crippling I rarely smile, I have no energy to do anything, I have no self esteem in myself, and the only thing that makes me happy is drawing and making art. Sadly, my schools teachers have banned me from drawing in all classes and I can't even draw anymore, the depression and stress from school made me lose all of my creative ideas and I have no time at home to draw because all day after school I work on homework until 10 or 11 pm and fight with my parents because there's to much homework to do and I get stressed and since I have no where to turn to I yell at my parents and I can't control it because I don't have time to learn how to and all I do is work and get bullied in an endless cycle of hellish madness. And to be honest I don't know how much longer I can hold on to the last bit of sanity I have left in me anymore. I just...can't do this anymore... Why? Why can't I just be happy? I know there are people that are suffering worse then me but why? Why do we have to suffer? Just why?....