I never argue about God. I only discuss because I know how it feels to be on the questioning side of it all. I still have questions answered all the time about Him when I read His word. It took me many years to finally commit/submit to his will because I realized just how messed I was. It is not that I didn't do good things but when I started picking apart my life I saw my inner demons coming out and how it affected my kids, my wife, and all my relationships. I was not necessarily a bad person by societies standards but I could still see the selfishness in me. I give all credit to God for turning me around. I hope when I pass away that he will show mercy on my soul. It has been nice chatting with you. I do have one piece of advice. If you want to ever want to learn about God......read for yourself. The King James Bible from my research is the most accurate but you still might have to look up Hebrew and Greek words to find better meaning. I pray one day you change your mind and truly, with all your heart, search for Him. It is never to late. Good night brother.