Hehehe, you did come. Kinda not the time, but you want the story here it is. [spoiler]I started feeling alienated from my friends, and less welcome. It was a feeling I couldn't shake, and believe me, I've dealt with much worse. It all started when we were doing something fun. We imitated each other, each one was really good, until me. They, my closest friends, knew less about me then those who I talk to once a week. I started walking alone, I worried so much about them, I cared, but it seems they didn't give a shit. I started leaving during conversations, and one girl noticed. She txted me, asked me wasup. I never talk of my feelings, ever. I worry about others before myself. Then for some reason, I started txting, and after it started I couldn't stop. I cried for hours (this is at night). The release was too much, and something snapped that I still can't find, an empty space. Self-control? Sel-confidence?Self-esteem? I dunno, it just left me. I was a wreck at school, everyone noticed. Everyone, even the teachers. Happy, always optimistic me had fallen. She assured me that I was wanted, but she and all of em were surprised. I'm good at hiding emotions. Very good. No one ever knew. It came without warning. But all that hate, depression, anger and frustration since Gr.4, my worst years, just cam out as tears. I was changed for a few weeks drastically, still a bit today. But that release was a changing thing, something that emotionally wrecked me. I broke down in class. My GF was worried asf. But I dunno, it's like it just came too much, worrying for them, stressing over them, caring too much. I just, snapped. [/spoiler]Wall of txt, just my struggles in the past month