Hehehe, you did come. Kinda not the time, but you want the story here it is. [spoiler]I started feeling alienated from my friends, and less welcome. It was a feeling I couldn't shake, and believe me, I've dealt with much worse. It all started when we were doing something fun. We imitated each other, each one was really good, until me. They, my closest friends, knew less about me then those who I talk to once a week. I started walking alone, I worried so much about them, I cared, but it seems they didn't give a shit. I started leaving during conversations, and one girl noticed. She txted me, asked me wasup. I never talk of my feelings, ever. I worry about others before myself. Then for some reason, I started txting, and after it started I couldn't stop. I cried for hours (this is at night). The release was too much, and something snapped that I still can't find, an empty space. Self-control? Sel-confidence?Self-esteem? I dunno, it just left me. I was a wreck at school, everyone noticed. Everyone, even the teachers. Happy, always optimistic me had fallen. She assured me that I was wanted, but she and all of em were surprised. I'm good at hiding emotions. Very good. No one ever knew. It came without warning. But all that hate, depression, anger and frustration since Gr.4, my worst years, just cam out as tears. I was changed for a few weeks drastically, still a bit today. But that release was a changing thing, something that emotionally wrecked me. I broke down in class. My GF was worried asf. But I dunno, it's like it just came too much, worrying for them, stressing over them, caring too much. I just, snapped. [/spoiler]Wall of txt, just my struggles in the past month

Well damn man, like you could've told me about this anytime. I'm somewhat of the therapist of the grade... [spoiler]Anyway, I don't give two craps if its a wall of text or a couple of words that describe your problems. You have me and every other person here who will listen to you. I'll be honest, I can somewhat relate to the shit hitting the fan starting from gr. 4. It kinda got progressively worse from there, but at the end of last year I realized something. Life is gonna throw shit at you, it's inevitable, but you gotta look life straight in the eye and show that "you're not letting this shit get to me. Asshole." I can't relate to being alienated by friends, but I know people who have and I've talked to them. One of them? She's one of my best friends now. Didn't even know I existed before that. That girl who was talking to you, start with her. She's probably trying her hardest to help you, even though you say you hide it really well. Me? To this day I still try to hide a bunch of my shit, originating from family affairs and problems. But I regret it, because now everyone's so used to that, it's hard trying to tell which one is actually truly me. So don't try to hide your feelings, venting helps. Trust me. Now, I'm no therapist or advice councillor, but I do try my hardest to help other people's problems. Maybe it's a bad habit of mine, I don't know. But if there's anything you want to ask me about or talk about, just hit me up.[/spoiler]

[spoiler]Hehehe, councillor. That's me, helping everyone. All the time. That's what hurt, not being appreciated, but I see now. I got it bud[/spoiler][spoiler]Lolz sorry, but I need to ask boy or girl? Sometimes you can't tell, most girls spell stuff correct, guys wrong. But guys talk a certain way too, so I can't tell with some people. I'm a guy :P[/spoiler]

I'm a guy, lol. I just don't act like it at times, and no I'm not gay, but if I was I'd be the same because gay people are cool and I'm cool. But really, I'm hoping I helped.

[spoiler]Didn't think you were gay, btw.[/spoiler] [spoiler]But thx[/spoiler]

You poor baby!!! *holds you*

*embraces back, tears in eyes* [spoiler]Cried typing that up*[/spoiler]