Feeling like there is no real point in like existing, I know I won't make a large impact on the world or anything of the sort, I'm more of a disappointment to my family then an over achiever. And I just feel nothing most of the time, I do have a girlfriend who I love and care for but sometimes that doesn't even help. On top of that my mom has a severe drug addiction and no matter what we have told her she just won't go get the help she needs, she is stubborn and hard headed and i don't even feel like she is much of a mom to me anymore. She neglected me most of my life due to drugs and I never met my real dad, I do have a step dad who is awesome and tries his best to make us happy. But I still just feel I don't belong here. It just tears me apart day by day and I feel myself slipping. I get no sleep and my only like way out is video games which i haven't played due to school. Sorry about the long text and the shitty grammar.