No lie tears were shed. I completely understand your dream just staying a dream since i am going through the same. Stay Strong and positive, try and talk to your partner and if she keeps doing what shes doing then shes not worth your time. I hope you find someone out there who truly helps you and can be there for you. You have your whole life ahead of you. There's so much more out there. I know your passion is the military but life clearly doesnt want you to go there, explore and find something that will make you get up every morning. Im sure you'll find it.